This week’s Photo Friday theme is black & white. Although this photo isn’t black and white, the writing on the wall is. It’s a well known fact, of course, that God drinks Guinness (I’m surprised, in fact, that Augustine has never alluded to this in her interview with the supreme Deity.) And it is also a well known fact that God frequents (and dispenses advice on the chalkboards of) a pub called the People’s Republik located halfway between Central and Harvard Squares in Cambridge, Massachusetts (our former fair city).
The People’s Republic of Cambridge (as the city is fondly known by diehard Cantabrigians) is indeed a left-leaning, earthy-crunchy place. Last night I drove down to Cambridge to give a Dharma talk at the Cambridge Zen Center with my friend Mark (aka Zen Master Bon Haeng). The Dharma talk was merely an excuse to visit my Zen friends, sleep over at the Zen Center, and then spend today in Cambridge. Visiting the Zen Center for me is a chance to reconnect with old friends, soak in some strong practice energy, and stroll the streets of my past. It’s like going home.
Even though today was rainy, I spent most of the day walking. I have a certain ritual when I’m in Cambridge: there are certain places I revisit, certain routes I walk, certain sights I take in. This morning, for instance, I had breakfast at the Greenhouse Cafe in Harvard Square, and then I walked to Mount Auburn Cemetery for a stroll. When we lived at the Zen Center, nearly every spring morning I’d ride my bike to Mount Auburn where I’d spend the morning birding, then I’d ride to the Greenhouse Cafe to eat breakfast and write up that day’s bird sightings.
The Greenhouse Cafe is one of my favorite places to write whenever I’m in Cambridge: the waitstaff doesn’t bother you needlessly, and the other patrons are colorful and intelligent, the usual Harvard crowd, so the eavesdropping is better than most. When we lived in Cambridge I was mostly vegetarian, so there was a certain guilty thrill in going to the Greenhouse at lunchtime for a grilled tuna salad sandwich and a heaping plateful of sinfully crispy french fries. (Surely they used lard to fry those taters: vegetarian decadence!) During our Zen Center years, the Greenhouse Cafe was my clean well-lighted place, a place where I could share space with anonymous people.
If the Greenhouse Cafe is my favorite place to write in Harvard Square, Mount Auburn Cemetery is my favorite place to walk. Although I typically went there to go birding, Mount Auburn is simply a beautiful place to walk: today I didn’t have binoculars but went to Mount Auburn to seek out the grave of Harriet Jacobs, author of the 19th century autobiography Incidents in the Life of a Slave Girl. (I’d assigned excerpts of Jacob’s narrative in my Women’s Lit class, so I wanted to show my students a photo of Jacob’s grassy grave.) It started to drizzle while I was strolling around Mount Auburn, but that didn’t matter: I had an umbrella, and the cemetery’s landscaping, tombstones, and funerary statues looked even more lush and lovely in the rain.
After returning from Mount Auburn to Harvard Square, I stopped in at Bob Slate’s Stationers (a paper fetishist’s paradise) and then had a sinfully decadent cup of hot chocolate at Burdick’s Cafe. Burdick’s was crowded and I couldn’t find a free table, so I shared one with an older woman who was reading a New Zealand guidebook in preparation for an August trip with her son, daughter-in-law, and grandchildren. “Do you come here often?” she asked over her first cup of decaf cappuccino. When I explained that I live in New Hampshire but had come to Cambridge to give a Zen talk, she asked what I’d talked about. “I talked about how Zen is about living in the present moment. It’s impossible to save it.”
“How do you mean?”
“Well, it’s like exercise. You can’t stockpile fitness: you have to exercise everyday. Zen’s the same way. Each moment is new, so each moment you have to keep practicing.”
“It’s like cod liver oil,” the woman remarked.
“Excuse me?”
“It’s like cod liver oil. My mother made me take a spoonful of cod liver oil everyday when I was a child up through the age of 15. But today, if I want the benefit of cod liver oil, I’d have to start taking it again.”
“Well, yes, exactly!” I laughed. “That’s it exactly. Zen’s just like cod liver oil: you have to take it everyday.” Only in Cambridge could you sit down with a total stranger, enjoy a cup of sinfully rich hot chocolate, and talk Zen without batting an eye.
“So, what else, besides time, can’t one save?” the woman asked. It was a perfect koan: I was stumped. What else, besides time, can’t one save? By this point, the woman had drained her second cup of decaf cappuccino. “I don’t know,” I stammered as she packed to go. “Have a good time in New Zealand!”
After she’d left and I had that clean, well-lighted table to myself, I realized the perfect answer to the woman’s question. We can’t save our lives: we all, gradually and invisibly, are marching toward mortality, inching our way to our grassy grave. “You can’t save a decaf cappuccino,” I should have told her as she swallowed the last drop. “You have to live your life and drink your cappuccino before it gets cold. You can’t save it: once it’s past, it’s gone for good.” That answer, though, came too late: it wasn’t written like the words of God in black and white for me to read off a wall, and in the moment it took me to think it up, the opportunity to say it had already passed. I’m flexible, it seems, but sometimes I miss those the amazing opportunities when they reveal themselves.
May 28, 2004 at 8:54 pm
Guinness…a true classic in black and white…ok, tan really, but nice interpretation of the theme!
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May 28, 2004 at 10:04 pm
Ah, but you saved the experience to share with us, so your come-back line (the best always arrive too late) wasn’t wasted. Thanks – good post. Something to think about. Preferably over a beer. Although a decaf cappuccino or a hot chocolate wouldn’t be bad choices either.
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May 28, 2004 at 11:14 pm
You make reference to the “grassy grave” that awaits us. That may be fine for you, but me– I’m planning on dying in a fantastic “Star Wars”-style space battle. Yes: my goal is to end up as frozen chunks of fatty meat in a decaying orbit over the earth, eventually burning up in the atmosphere as hundreds of little meteoric barbecues.
By the way, it seems to me that if you can’t save time, you can’t save anything.
Kevin
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May 29, 2004 at 8:41 am
A lovely post with much to savour in both this moment and many others. Thanks.
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May 29, 2004 at 5:57 pm
“We can’t save our lives: we all are inching our way to our grassy grave.”(paraphrased)
some us us tend to move in inches, while others move in greedy leaps and bounds
this was a great experience, and thanks for sharing it … how lovely to have a clean, well-lighted place in which to simmer your thoughts
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May 30, 2004 at 2:53 pm
Geezitro, thanks for stopping by & commenting. I’d snapped this pic fully intending to post something else (something that’s actually b&w) for the Photo Friday challenge, but all those other shots didn’t turn out, and I loved this message on a bottle. So once again, I relied upon a fortuitous accident to answer the challenge…
Leslee, next time you’re in my neck of the woods, drop me a line & I’ll treat you to a beer, a decaf cappuccino, a cup of hot chocolate, or even all three. You know, I’ve discovered that black flies of all things like Guinness: the last time I imbibed a pint, I had a swarm of them circling my glass. So not only is Guinness good for *you*, it’s good for black flies, too! π
Kevin, I agree with you 100% when you say “if you can’t save time, you can’t save anything.” Actually, the first thing I said to this woman when she asked me what I’d talked about was, “You can’t save anything.” She then asked me to explain that, and the rest of the conversation happened. I shortened it for the sake of the blog, but you hit my initial point right on the (foamy, beery) head.
I’ll let you have your fantasy of a intergalactic demise if you leave my grassy grave alone. To each her or his own! π
qB, I’m so glad you liked the post. Thanks for stopping by & commenting: it’s always great to “see” you!
ntexas, we’re all on the same path, we all have the same end, but we don’t all *realize* that. I’m sure lots of folks (most normal people?) think I’m terribly morbid for loving old cememteries & talking so incessantly about mortality, but I’ve always seen death as being the flipside of life’s coin. If you want to live a full life, you have to acknowledge where that leads; if you acknowledge life is short, you will live your days more deeply. At least that’s my own personal life credo…
Thanks, as always, to everyone for reading & commenting.
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May 31, 2004 at 10:35 am
Thanks, Lorianne. I may take you up on that one of these days. Also thanks for the tip on Guinness and black flies! Since I don’t drink the stuff I could get a glass and put it somewhere to draw those little suckers away from me!
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May 31, 2004 at 3:07 pm
Leslee, you might be onto something since the black flies I mentioned all were trying to crawl down my glass for a drink. If left to their own devices, I’m sure they all would have drowned! So maybe if you surround your house with pints of Guinness, you could lure all the black flies to their death…while you enjoyed a lovely fly-free evening on the patio. It’s worth a try! π
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May 31, 2004 at 8:01 pm
Lori, thanks for reminding me to ask God to get me a Guinness next time we’re out drinking. I’ve been neglecting the big G lately but aim to make up it for it soon.
That was a lovely conversation: Zen and Cod Liver Oil – title of a book you will write?
I love both Cambridge MA and Cambridge UK, in their very different ways. Wish I could have a hot chocolate with you in either place and talk of Zen and time and Michelangelo and whether to wear the bottom of our trousers rolled.
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Jun 3, 2004 at 7:37 am
Natalie, how great to “see” you here! Yes, definitely have God buy you a Guinness the next time you’re out: heck, have him buy you two! Since he is, after all, the Supreme Deity, I’m sure he knows where all the good pubs are & will make sure your pint is properly poured… π
*Zen & Cod Liver Oil* would make an intriguing book title, wouldn’t it? I’d have to give credit to that anonymous woman (although she did, as she walked away, give me permission to use it in my next talk…)
I’ve never been to Cambridge UK: someday, someday. Maybe I’ll swing by on my book-tour for the Cod Liver Oil book… π
Thanks for dropping by, and thanks for the wonderful Eliot allusion!
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