On Saturday night, several girlfriends and I met in Portsmouth, NH to go shopping, people-watching, and dining. While browsing upscale kitchenwares and funky jewelry, I spotted a stack of Marital Bliss chocolate bars, each of them divided in “half” as shown above. Chuckling, I pointed them out to my girlfriends and continued browsing. A girl, of course, can never have too much chocolate, upscale kitchenwares, or funky jewelry, but I wasn’t seriously in the market for anything: just looking.
After we’d stopped shopping and started deciding where to eat, I got thinking about those chocolate bars and the Marital Bliss they presumably promise. Perhaps I was still contemplating the thoughts on growing a 20-something-year marriage that Beth posted last week, or perhaps I’m still feeling contemplative in the aftermath of the three year anniversary of my separation. Whatever the reason for my having serious thoughts about a chocolate bar designed as a gag gift, it seemed I wasn’t the only one in Portsmouth on Saturday night thinking about marriage. As my friends and I considered and then rejected one restaurant for our Girls’ Night Out, we encountered the members of a beer-soaked bachelor party milling on a street corner, the guest of honor clearly identifiable by an actual ball and chain tethered to his foot. Once we’d decided upon and gotten settled at another restaurant, we discovered the table next to ours was the site of a bachelorette party, the guest of honor sporting a fake tiara and pacifier-sized toy diamond ring. On a summer Saturday night in Portsmouth, it seems the Almost-Marrieds & Friends come out in droves.
Sitting next to a party of marriage-minded 20-somethings, I had to wonder what wisdom our table might offer theirs. I’m a 30-something; my two girlfriends are 40-somethings. Two of us are divorced after a dozen years of marriage apiece; one of us is a veteran dater. I’m not a math wizard, but I couldn’t help but think that we three more-than-20-somethings had more relationship experience–and certainly more firsthand knowledge of marriage, separation, and divorce–than the dozen 20-somethings sitting next to us. Collectively, the women sitting at my table surely know something–surely I know something–the blushing bride-to-be with her fake tiara and toy diamond ring hasn’t yet learned.
And so here it is, little sister: wisdom learned the hard way. Don’t listen to me: listen to the chocolate bar. When it comes to Marital Bliss, it ain’t about 50/50.
At first blush, Bride-To-Be, my words might seem bitter: dark chocolate that’s far less sweet than what you’re used to. But when it comes to relationships, calculating percentages almost always leads to keeping score. As soon as you replace the sexual thrill of scoring with the judgmental act of keeping score, you’ve taken what an old friend of mine called the Turning Point Toward Death. The honeymoon’s really over when you stop appreciating and being grateful for what your mate is and does and instead begin tallying what your mate isn’t and doesn’t do.
Because no two people are perfectly matched, no relationship can constantly and consistently operate on a strict 50/50 basis. One of you will make more money than the other. One of you will do more housework, and one of you will work longer hours. One of you will be better at managing household finances, one of you will be a better cook, and one of you will be neater and better organized. If you have children, one of you will spend more time than your partner does changing diapers, reading bedtime stories, and chauffeuring youngsters to music lessons and sporting events.
In a word, in any given category of marital housekeeping, one of you will rate 60% and the other 30%; in some other category, one of you will score 10% and the other 75%. None of this adds up, of course, to a perfect 100%, and it certainly isn’t 50/50. In the real world, the perfect math of 50/50 is an elusive ideal that couples can strive toward, but expect to be disappointed and be ready to be tolerant when the numbers simply don’t add up.
In my own, admittedly failed marriage, my ex-husband and I were practiced perfectionists when it came to keeping score, and the result was seething resentment and divorce. An English major with several adjunct teaching jobs can’t possibly match the income of a software engineer. Although I tried to compensate by doing as much around the house as my more-flexible work schedule allowed, the value of all my cooking, cleaning, errand-running, and other to-doing never seemed to equal the paycheck my ex-husband earned from a “real job.” When it came to making financial decisions, I never felt I’d invested enough (metaphorically or literally) to make my voice count. Although my ex-husband remembers our deliberations differently, I clearly recall the moment when our decision to buy a house was made by his definitive proclamation, “I make the money, so I get to make the decisions.” Money is one way to decide who’s contributing more than 50% to a given relationship, but it’s not the only factor worth considering. As soon as you start doing the Marital Math of calculating who’s worth what, the damage has already been done.
Agreeing to split wage-earning and household tasks 50/50 is a noble goal, but the calculus of trade-offs can be tricky. Does the “worth” of staying home to raise a child equal or surpass the “worth” of pulling in a full-time paycheck? If a stay-at-home partner manages a frugal household, does Ben Franklin’s motto about a penny saved being a penny earned truly enter into home economics? In the premarital and honeymoon phases of a relationship, it’s easy to think you and your partner are on the same page when it comes to the division of labor, management of finances, and other mundane issues that encourage score-keeping…but as soon as one of you starts wondering if the other is pulling her or his weight, there’s trouble in paradise.
Pulling your weight in a relationship is essential, but so too is the realization that few partners weigh the same. In any relationship, there will be countless times when one partner will have to use her or his strength to compensate for the other’s weakness, and in any long-term relationship, there will be times (in sickness and in health) when one partner is partly or even wholly incapacitated, relying even more upon a helping hand. If you’re keeping track of Who’s Helping Whom and How Much, there will be times when you wonder why you (or your partner) is doing more of the relational heavy-lifting. In my experience, this line of thought is a one-way fast-lane to unhappiness and domestic discord.
When it comes to Marital Math, I learned my lesson the hard way, having been stumped by a problem I couldn’t solve. On the other side of marriage and divorce, I have this to say to any Almost-Married looking for advice: splitting things 50/50 is a lovely ideal, but in a real marriage, you shouldn’t count anything but your blessings. Instead of keeping track of your and your partner’s percentages, shouldn’t each of you agree to put 100% into your relationship no matter what?
UPDATE: In response to my question about what she learned from her brief first marriage, Beth posted a follow-up to her original post on how to grow a healthy marriage. As much as I appreciated Beth’s original post, I think her follow-up list is even better!
Aug 7, 2007 at 5:43 pm
That is one of the most astute assessments of a marriage that i have ever seen. You have very succinctly summed it all up in a few hundred words. It should be taught in high school and college as a text. How interesting what we choose to teach our children and odder still the things we choose not to.
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Aug 7, 2007 at 7:46 pm
D knows that is the fair share for chocolate. He get’s the larger 50% of lemon bars. It all works out.
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Aug 7, 2007 at 7:50 pm
Bookmarked – this and Beths’ – in case I ever get the opportunity to test the advice out.
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Aug 8, 2007 at 7:03 am
Jo said it! I’ve never been married, but this seems to hit the nail on the head!
Wonder if the bachelor-bachelorette were marrying each other? How coincidental would THAT be?
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Aug 8, 2007 at 9:11 am
You’ve written a lot of truth here, Lorianne. If couples can’t view the relationship as a whole, with ALL the various responsibilities and contributions of time, money, effort and heart given value and respect, I don’t see how the relationship can succeed. your 20-something-bachelorettes make me sad and worried for another reason: too many young people seem in love with the idea of “the wedding” as both adventure and consumption/expenditure designed to impress or keep up with the materialism of their peers. The chocolates are funny, but also not at all…I wish the soon-to-be-marrieds had been able to ingest the wisdom at your table instead.
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Aug 8, 2007 at 5:33 pm
I wondered, Steve, whether the bachelor & bachelorette went together, but I guess we’ll never know. If it was a night-before-the-wedding party, it would make sense they’d both celebrate on the same night…
Beth, I share your qualms about 20-somethings and marriage. I married as a 20-something, and it was incredibly difficult to focus on my upcoming marriage rather than the hoopla of the wedding. Both my ex and I (and my family) wanted a small, understated ceremony: we had a fixed budget, and we wanted to spend most of it on our honeymoon, not a fancy shindig. My in-laws, however, had their hearts set on a big wedding, so I was a trouble-maker even before I officially entered their family.
I’m not sure, though, that most 20-somethings want the kind of advice I’m doling out here. I know I didn’t listen to advice when I got married, and I’d imagine I was a pretty typical 20-something.
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Aug 8, 2007 at 6:07 pm
Not just for 20-somethings. I had a housemate who was 40 when she married, despite nasty pre-wedding fights with the groom-to-be. But she wanted all the frills and bling and it was a fun wedding, I have to admit, but the marriage lasted less than two years. Said she, “well at least I had my wedding.”
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Aug 8, 2007 at 11:53 pm
This was wonderful, Lorianne. Thank you for writing it.
(I’m bookmarking it, which is something I seem to do every time you write a post about marriage.)
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Aug 9, 2007 at 11:53 am
I printed this out and have it posted in my office. A truth is spoken here – something I hope to keep present as I navigate the waters of intimacy with a new beloved. I’m also approaching the third year anniversary of separation and divorce…may I make different mistakes this time! Don’t they it’s a sign of poor mental health when we make the same mistakes over and over — despite painful consequences? ;o)
I’ll share this with my college psychology class when we examine love and intimacy Fall term.
Thanks, Lorianne, for an excellent blog. The contents here have provided something akin to spiritual fertilizer many of my days.
In gassho, Judy
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Aug 17, 2007 at 6:37 pm
The problem with the idea of 50/50 is, of course, that you’re right; you can’t simply divide by 2. I think what we strive for isn’t equality — it’s equity, and when you’re doing marital math, sometimes it’s hard to remember that not everything wears a dollar sign, particularly in this consumption-obsessed society of ours.
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Oct 15, 2007 at 10:22 am
I think that chocolate bar is a perfect representation. Just as you point out, some fifty-percents are bigger than others……
One thing I would warn any woman getting married would be — do not get lost from the work world. Even the very best guy in the world can get hit by a bus and leave you needing to earn a living.
Any division of labor within the household that strikes both parties as reasonably equitable (“you do the grocery shopping; I do the laundry” or whatever) is fine, but I believe it is very important for every woman to develop and maintain a presence in the world of paid work.
Because you just Never Know.
That is, of course, a separate issue from one person lording over the other because they earn more. Shame on him……….
Equity of power in the relationship is really a key issue, as others have noted. My advice is — marry someone younger. It levels the playing field…….. 🙂
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