After the highs and lows of last week and weekend, today I’m looking forward to a return to ordinary time.
Tuesdays are busy with both teaching and tutoring, but I’ve already prepared today’s classes and tomorrow’s announcements. I have papers to grade–during the semester, I always have papers to grade–but I know everything will get done in due time. It always does.
The wisdom of both age and experience is this: the water always settles, no matter how big the splash. You think your life can’t possibly continue after death, heartbreak, or other upset–with each loss, you think this is the one that will flatten you for good–but somehow, inexplicably, you get up, again. You continue with the mundane routines and rituals. You get dressed, go to work, get groceries, and do both the dishes and the laundry. Like it or not, the world will continue without the ones you’ve lost, and the world will continue without you, too.
We find solace and healing–we find our footing, literally–by continuing to put one foot in front of the other. Weeping may last a night–or for the length of your morning commute, if you’re prone to crying in cars–but rejoicing will come in the morning. The earth never ceases to turn, and we either keep moving, too, or we get left behind.
Life is incredibly resilient: every year, plants rise from the dead in spring, and so do our hopes and spirits. Even as we lie on the floor, collapsed under the weight of accumulated despair, there is something within us that pops up, buoyant, ready to right our psychic ship. After the excitement of accomplishment and the tragedy of loss, there is something within us that yearns to return to ordinary time.